Life's ambiguity

After reading John Green's Looking for Alaska, I honestly felt a bit of disappointment with how it ended. Though I already had the idea of how the story's gonna go because I've read the summary before I actually read it, still I was surprised. So here it is..

(I'm not gonna do a summary or in depth review, just gonna state my point..okay)

In the book Alaska Young died in an accident, well before actually reading it, I really believed that she committed suicide but it turns out that in the book the real reason of her death is a mystery.Whether suicide or not, her friends do not know. They do have assumptions of what the reason might be, but that's it, no answers just questions.

I wanted to hate John Green for that, but upon reading his answers to those readers who have the same questions as me, I got his point and had my realizations..

Live with ambiguity. 

As he said, I do agree that there really are questions that need answers but no matter how hard we try, will forever remained unanswered.Well, that's how we should accept life as it is. Full of mysteries and uncertainties.Life's surprises, you'll never know what you're gonna get. You plan for what you want, but whether you'll succeed in it... there's no guarantee. You wait for something but there's a chance that it might not come, but you keep on waiting though. Coz we live in a world of endless possibilities, some with clarity and some with total uncertainty, but we embrace it.. we risk, hope and believe. We don't get answers to every questions, but as we keep on figuring out the answers..we just learned lessons.

much love..
Jessanel

I.N.V.U. (late post)

Yeah, right. Admittedly, after reading someone's blog, I felt envious.

 I could relate to her in a lot of ways, the things she love, what she does and what her dreams are. I got chills as I go through her blog.. OMG, I felt the same way. But our wheels turned the opposite way. She nailed the path she's always dreamed of, the dream that I too,  has been dreaming for so long.  The sweet pursuit of her dreams. I can see how happy she is now.

I don't wanna feel this way, but it just wouldn't stop :(

 I remember my professor mentioned in our class that envy is part of life. At some point there will come a time that you tend to realize that you really are unsatisfied with what you have, therefore you aim for something else.

But the real deal is how to turn this negative into something positive.

This just motivates me.. A challenge to strive harder, improve myself and strengthen my faith. I know if it's destined for me, it will happen no matter what. He is just preparing me for his perfect plan in his own perfect time.

Your heart,

You don’t wear it on your sleeves

You don’t speak up & reason out

Humans are capable of reasoning

You are blessed with it, so use it!

Why are you so shy?

You’re afraid of offending or hurting people?

It’s not like that

Not all in life is sweet

People need to deal with that

Tell them the truth, though it might hurt

Say what you need to say

Don’t always think that it is impolite

You just want to prove your point

And what’s wrong with that?

Why do you keep in concealing?

Your feelings, express it!

Talk about it, then deal with it

People who care & love you

They would never mind listening to you..

You keep it all to yourself

Painful, right?

How long can you bear being like this?

I hope not that long..

Change… please….