Reveuse x Introverti x Optimiste

I dislike what I'm feeling.
I wanted contentment, but at certain point I tend to think of other possibilities out there for me.
gawd.. I really hate this! 
Can somebody please take all these thoughts out of me.
Confusing paths. Which one should I take?
I wanna be enlightened.
Encouragements and discouragements, I think I needed both.
Lord please help me.