Baby girl don't cry

At times like this, I can't help but miss the person who supports me in every decision I make.

I miss my Papa so much :(
I don't wanna cry but I feel so down, I just want him here.

I never felt so lonely and depressed before because he is always supporting me no matter what. He believes in me and always makes me feel better. He is my knight in shining armor - my savior. That one person who never sees the defeated version of me. I remember before how he would always defend my side on every situation. I am always in tears whenever he did that. How can one person made you feel so secured and protected to the point you are so overwhelmed that you just want to cry? I don't know how Papa does that. His words always lifts me up, making me feel positive again. He is my perfect definition of optimism. My best encouragement. He's a trampoline waiting for my every jump and as I fall he will catch me and made me bounce back again to the top. He is definitely the best man in my life and that will never change.

I wish I could turn back time and go back during those years when I can stare at your face, see your smile and hear your voice. I wish I could still hug and kiss you.

I wish I could time travel. Or maybe just a rewind button in life. That would be nice.

It's not that I haven't accepted what happened yet. It's been two years and everything is clear to me now. But I just can't help but long for your presence.

I love you so much Papa. Your baby girl misses you soooo much...

YOLO - What's holding you back?

You only live once. 

True enough. A very important thought we should all keep in mind. But I bet, this is easier said than done.

I could attest to that. I can say YOLO forever, but am I really living it up?

If not, what's holding me back?

Life is about taking chances. But taking chances requires a lot of courage and confidence. We need to take risks and ignore everything or everyone that will go against our action. Sad to say, I think our society is about conformity. We adhere to what others think is right. We tend to be pressured with the expectations that society created for us. Hence, this hinders us from being brave enough to do whatever we want. Doing things without having to consider what others may think. 

Another is that, we live with fear. We are so scared, even with our visualizations and imaginations alone. We worry a lot and over think things. As we take the risks life has to offer, we are never certain of how things will turn out. There's no guarantee. We may succeed (bravo!) but, there is the possibility that we may fail as well (scary!). And because of our fear of failure and rejection, we'd rather not do it at all. We are so afraid of failing, but who loves failure anyway? 

Conformity and fear.Two things that should be stopped now.

These are barriers that keep us from living the life we ever wanted, life to the fullest!

We only have this one shot at life and we can never tell until when we can have it.

So why not start taking chances now? Do whatever it is that makes you happy. Follow your heart's desire. Be brave and do not be afraid. Take risks while you still can. Throw all the worries and be excited all the time. Nothing you do is worthless for there can always be a good thing out of it - experience. Always say - "at least I tried" which is much better than the 'what if's' that you might get out of the regret of not trying at all. 

Are you ready to live each day as if it will end by midnight? If not, then try. Try while you still have time. 

God blessed us with this life. Let us not waste it by living full of regrets. Happiness lies within the desires of your heart coming to life. So, do it now and make it happen. Live the life you want. After all,

you only live once. 

YOLO. A note to myself.

xoxo,

jess