What if

I'm the type who hates regrets,

I'd rather have lessons learned

But throughout those years

of hoping and wishing

You just turned out to be

my life's greatest 'what if'

Much of a missed chance, I should say.

But, gotta get going. 

So that's it. 

C'est la vie.

Apology

I feel bad for all those friendly strangers trying to initiate casual and friendly conversations with me. Sorry if most of the time, the best response you can get from me would be a faint smile. It's not you, it's me. Always me, and my seems like forever socially awkward self. 

 I'm not good at small talks. In fact, I dread it. I just can't pull off situations where I have to be this accommodating lady towards people I barely knew. 

So, you are free to call me snobbish if you like. That's fine, I can deal with that rather than forcing myself to be the friendliest person in a sea of people. I just can't.

But I am a work in progress. I'm trying my best to somewhat work on my social skills, at least take it up a notch. 

So for now.. my sincerest apology, people.


xxx